me and this bottle

myspace tells me justin is married.
justin was my first boyfriend, high school sweetheart,
first love, first heartbreak.

it’s not that i should care,
but it’s weird to know that someone i used to think i was going to marry
has married someone else.
know what i mean?

and also, i’ve been drinking and it’s 3am so i’m all mooshy and shit.
and i’ve been thinking about how relationships weren’t always bad,
that maybe i should stop harboring all the bad memories and think about the good stuff.
at least that’s what this bottle of pisco is telling me.

so yeah, some of the good times:

• whenever i was mad at j., he’d do the craziest, retarded telly (from larry clark’s kids) impression.
and i’d laugh and not be mad anymore.

• on our first date, t. and i sat parked in my little miata until 4am, talking about music.

• c. was like, “i’m not gay, but if i could fuck a voice, it’d be bradley nowell’s.”
and i was like, “whoah. me too.”

• n. and i were drunk in the taxi coming back from charlie’s this one time
and he tells me he wants to marry me and i’m like, “for real?” and he goes, “yeah”
and then he ties a tiny piece of string to my finger.

• s. made my world spin whenever he kissed me.

• a. sadly, i cannot remember much about him except that this one time,
he hacked my calculator so i could ace my stats exam.

• v. surprised me by driving over late one evening and gave me the longest hug goodnight
because i had texted him, “i really miss you.”

• the first time he came to visit, b. brought cookies for my dad and lychees for my mom.
the cookies were soft because my dad has sensitive teeth. and my mom loves lychees.

• • • • •

sometimes, i unintentionally make things that reveal how i feel at that moment.
and i guess this is what loneliness looks like.

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currently listening to:
monte reminded me of how wonderful this girl is.
as cheeky as she gets sometimes, the lyrics in this one track kill me.

littlest things

nrn rocks my world.

sheri, my audio production professor from last spring,
asked me to crew on her short film, toy horse,
a fairytale about a talking.. well, toy horse.

i am a lousy script supervisor.
she figured since i was good at details, i could handle continuity issues.
wrong.

i could remember that the actress placed the bag, tilted 27 degrees right,
two inches away from the center bottom of the table,
but i couldn’t remember with which arm she was holding her purse.
“what? she was holding a purse?!”

cassie.

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anne.

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cassie again.

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also did a flyer for drew.
was hoping because the party was called trance addict
i could get away with making a funky rave flyer.
but he was like, “no veanne! sexy. we want sexy.”

alright then.

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(that’s julianna on the flyer, from a shoot i did at my old valencia apartment last year)

currently listening to:

this
describes my mood.

usf film arts festival

joey and i are sneaking in juice bottles mixed with vodka
and we’re thinking of heading to the dna lounge afterwards for some bootie mash ups.

lemme know if you’re down and we’ll save you a spot.

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i have flinestones feet.

the challenge: take a huge buttload of text thrown at me and then lay them out to make sense.

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it’s kinda nice to be paid for your hobbies,
although i sometimes feel like i’m undermining the real professionals.

he's gonna drop alien girl..

i totally miss you rick.
so tonight,
a bunch of us are gonna head down south to check out your weekly club night.

yO peeps,
come out and support san jose drum&bass.

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headliner has my two favorite guys tagteaming
and two for one sake bombs all night.
how much better can it get? :)

goodbye dear friends

i didn’t want to make such a big fuss about leaving the bay area
but it would be sort of shady of me to not have a farewell get together with you guys.
so thursday night at incognita will be my last night to kick it with you wonderful people.
please come. your attendance would be much appreciated.
love,
me.

here’s osby’s bsp to sfraves:
On Wed, 11 December 2002, “Osby Jamz” wrote:
Hey… there’s gonna be like this South Bay Invasion comin’ up @ Incognita this Thursday…. check it out:
Anywaze, The Bay Area will be sayin’ Have a gRoovy trip 2 Boston C U soon
2 our DNB/2-Step/Breakbeats Spinstress Diva, Mylai in a Huge way!!!

Killa Subz Homies will be hosting the Jungle room while
Bay Area BreakBeat Super Heros will be spinning in the other room!!
It’s gonna be so fun!!! Grrrrrrr… but there’s so many Groovy things goin’ on that night…OMG!!! It’s so hard 2 decide!!!
But I know this will be 1 of my Mondo stops of the night ’cause I Love My Mylai!!!

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in pigtails today

1. i skipped out on my theatre arts class to spend some time with my adorable boyfriend
before he left for detroit.
that’s right. i said boyfriend. i am officially off the market. :)

2. i watched babe, one of my favorite movies. i love that pig.

3. project #1: nova ticket design (although small) finished.
this year’s theme for nova’s cabin party is pajama party.
they wanted cute, simple and pretty.. “and can you please include a rubber ducky?”

this is what they got.

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i find it difficult photographing dancers.
shoot them at a fast speed and you lose the energy.
shoot them at a slow speed and you get a big sloppy blur.

still practicing..

breakdancers shot at f4-5.6 @60-125

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currently listening to:

new edition
all day.