love, mom

mom took this one of me when we were in vietnam two years ago.
she has a knack for capturing me as i am;
slightly uncomfortable in front of cameras, but always carrying snacks.

veanne cao

christmas day with their presents

there are only two people in the world with whom i trust my heart.

my big brother.
with his remote control flying shark, a gift from cousin calvin.


 

you cannot find a better man.

 
. . . . . .
 

mom. she’s being silly in this picture.
i got her the hooded coat for christmas.

her heartbreak hurts me more than any man i’ve ever loved.
i daydream about taking her to an island far away,
where we waddle our feet in the ocean
(since neither of us know how to swim),
climb trees and be insouciant, young girls again.

and also have internet so she can watch her korean dramas before going to bed.

bermuda

hamilton.


 

saint george.


 

fancily slapped together, overpriced, mediocre tasting food.


 

southampton beach.


 

happy birthday to me. another year closer to death.


 

called momma tonight. we joke around about death like it’s not taboo or tactless.
she said that when she dies,
she wants to be cremated and then have her ashes spread across somewhere pretty,
but not in the mountains because she’s afraid of heights
and not on the beach because she can’t swim.

i told her vi also wants to be cremated.
except vi said, “and then i want you all to put me in a pipe and smoke me.”
 

currently listening to:
the xx is top on my itunes right now. such a beautiful album.

islands

christmas in a little town called elk grove.

making ornaments with old family photos.


 

voila!


 

mom brought home live lobsters. my best friend is fearless.


 

my dinner plate.


 

waiting for midnight to open presents.
getting lots of slobbering kisses from henri while joey takes a nap.


 

daddy handing out presents.


 

vinh loves me.


 

i got him finger toe socks.


 

how cute is momma with her new bathrobe? =)


 

aimee got vinh a rape whistle
(because you know, boys his size need some sort of protection against creepy dudes).
curious henri popped his head right up.


 

a few dozen more pictures, but i’m sleepy.
happy holidays everyone! <3

apa and mommy

a moment caught on video.

there’s no one i love more than these two.

my mom cracks me up.

she said, “why don’t you just move back home,
get knocked up, live on welfare
and go back to school to finish your masters?”

goodbye sf bitches!

last friday, my last night in sf,
cat took me to club mighty to down coronas mixed with redbull
and i danced until 4am to some damn good techno.

now back at my parents house in elk grove.
it’s nice having mom take care of me and feed my belly.
i told her i was going to marry a girl like her one day.
she shook her head and let out a sigh.

and sure, why not.
here was my first attempt at narrative film making,
produced last year for my media production class.

 
“mỹ Ä‘en”, in english and vietnamese (with english subtitles)

total running time: 4:25.

 
currently listening to:
cat wouldn’t let me play oh l’amour in the car
because the last time i was heartbroken,
we blasted that song on repeat the whole time we drove to and back from lake tahoe.

so we sang along to

this
instead.

thank you nico, vlad and joey

last thursday:
mom found me in bed with my head pressed against bailey’s belly
crying like a helpless idiot
and convinced dad to let me bring the piano to the house.

but i wasn’t really crying over the piano..
life has been a total jerk to me this month;
bad stuff keeps happening one after another….
and then i turned around to grab the tv remote
and i banged my knee on the corner of my bed frame really hard
and it hurt really bad.
it was like, “oh come on! what next?!” :(

mom suggested i spend the weekend in san francisco with friends
to de-stress.

saturday:
veronica has a huge crush on mccauley caulkin so we went to see saved.
it was suppose to be a comedy damnit, not a love story.

joey and i saw an ethnic dance festival.
here i go again, sneaking in my camera.

0361

[reminds me of being in a dream]

sunday:
cat, chris and i went to the gay pride parade.

0362

on the muni, on the way to getting mint chocolate chip milkshakes.

0363

currently listening to:

corny 80’s music always cheers me up

wa wa wa wa..

my parents just a bought a new house
so we’re packing up stuff.

i saw this in my mom’s box of junk.
“i found it in your old bedroom in the closet.”
she had no idea what it was.

0345

blueish white

poe and twitch on my parents’ matching cellphones.

0341

missed them!

mom and dad are home from their one month vacation in thailand and vietnam,
tanned and healthy as ever.

dad bought me a pipa as an early birthday present.

0321

goodbye ettore

i wished for a ticket to nowhere
so that nothing here would hurt me
because nothing here mattered in nowhere
but i didn’t go to nowhere because
i thought about my mom
and how i didn’t want to make her cry
and so i held on a little longer.
i wish you had as well.

it rained tonight.

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currently listening to:

i’ve seen sunny days that I thought would never end
.